When are you going to get tired of
writing other people’s stories and start writing your own?
To jump the gap between knowing
all of the nuances of someone’s life and the eternal grasp of controlling them,
into the accidental despair of the uncertain and the infinite possible
repercussions of the contingent?
You must necessarily become the
main character of your story, this is my advice. You must write your story, but
not through words.
There is a moment in literary
writing in which words extend beyond paper. First, they become part of the
imagination, the meaning of what they stand for is realized, and the sign is
split from the significant, leaving all but an idea.
This idea clots with many others
and they merge through a constant burning, effervescent chaos within the
thought. Your mind will then be constituted forming a dialectical understanding
of the mental, and of the material things.
Through this process you will
become the main character of your life. For when words are merged with ideas,
and they become inseparable from each other, there is no option for you but to
become merged with words.
Every action you take: the
thrill of a new discovery, the applause of your partners after a great
achievement, the look in her eyes when she knows that you want her… All of these
events will be paralleled by a latent sensation of awareness.
You will open up to the fortuity
and be firm and brave to accept the immensity of the uncertain with the most
pure and dreadful vulnerability.
